Songs in Anger.

All the songs I play when I'm Angry, Pissy, P. O., Enraged, Outrage, etc.

Maybe

Written by Ingrid Michaelson

I don't want to be the one to say goodbye
But I will, I will, I will
I don't want to sit on the pavement while you fly
But I will, I will, oh yes I will

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me

I don't want to be the first to let it go
But I know, I know, I know
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head
But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away everything til you come home to me

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
In the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go

Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me

SMILE by Lily Allen

When you first left me
I was wanting more
But you were ***king that girl next door
What'cha do that for?
What'cha do that for?

When you first left me
I didnt know what to say
I've never been on my own that way
Just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you are feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile
Yeah it makes me smile

At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me
You say that you want me back
(Want me back)
And I tell you it don't mean jack
(It don't mean jack)
No it don't mean jack
(No it don't mean jack)

I couldn't stop laughing
No I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile
Yeah it makes me smile

At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile
La la la

At first when I see you cry
(When I see you cry)
It makes me smile
(It makes me smile)
Yeah it makes me smile
(Yeah it makes me smile)

At worst I feel bad for a while
(I feel bad for a while)
But then I just smile
(But then I just smile)
I go ahead and smile
(I go ahead and smile)
La la la

At first when I see you cry
(When I see you cry)
It makes me smile
(It makes me smile)
Yeah it makes me smile
(It makes me smile)

At worst I feel bad for a while
(I feel bad for a while)
But then I just smile
(Then I just smile)
I go ahead and smile
(I go ahead and smile)

Friend of Mine by Lily Allen

I don't want us to have a fight
But in the background I can hear you chatting
I hear it every night

And you think you're being really cool
And you've been doing it since we were both at school
Now who looks like a fool?

You're no friend of mine girl
And I've known it for a while girl
You're just a waste of time girl
Why don't you have another line girl?

Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self-respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck

Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self-respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck

What happened to the good old days?
I was kind of hoping this was all a stupid phase
Who are you anyway?

I know you've heard this all before
I know some people who are calling you a whore
Don't know you anymore

You're no friend of mine girl
And I've known it for a while girl
You're just a waste of time girl
Why don't you have another line girl?

Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self-respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck

Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self-respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck

Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self-respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck

Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self-respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck

You and Your Hand by Pink

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Check it out
Going out
On the late night
Looking tight
Feeling nice
It's a **** fight
I can tell
I just know
That it's going down
Tonight
At the door we don't wait cause we know them
At the bar six shots just beginning
That's when dick head put his hands on me
But you see

I'm not here for your entertainment
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh

Midnight
I'm drunk
I don't give a ***k
Wanna dance
By myself
Guess you're outta luck
Don't touch
Back up
I'm not the one
Buh bye
Listen up it's just not happening
You can say what you want to your boyfriends
Just let me have my fun tonight
Aiight

I'm not here for your entertainment
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Break break
Break it down

In the corner with your boys you bet 'em five bucks
You'd get the girl that just walked in but she thinks you suck
We didn't get all dressed up just for you to see
So quit spilling your drinks on me yeah

You know who you are
High fivin, talking ****, but you're going home alone arentcha?

Cause I'm not here for your entertainment
No
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight
It's just you and your hand

I'm not here for your entertainment
No no no
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
Just take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight
Yeah oh

Cuz I Can by PINK

Hahaha
We're gonna rock and roll
Ra Ra
Alright I drink more than you
I party harder than you do
And my car's faster than yours too

P I N K
P I M P
I'm back again
I know you all missed me
I'm so so sick
Can't handle it
Yeah I talk ****
Just deal with it

My rims are 23 inch
And they're black on black
No they're not his
Diamonds all over my teefs
You can try and try you can't beat me

So I'll cash my cheques and place my bets
And hope I'll always win
Even if I don't I'm ***ked because
I live a life of sin
But it's alright
I don't give a damn
I don't play your rules I make my own
Tonight
I'll do what I want
Cuz I can

You know I'm rare
You stop and stare
You think I care
I don't
You talk real loud
But you ain't saying nothing cool
I could fit your whole house in my swimming pool

My life's a fantasy
That you're not smart enough to even dream
My ice is making me freeze
You can try and try you can't beat me

So I'll cash my cheques and place my bets
And hope I'll always win
Even if I don't I'm ***ked because
I live a life of sin
But it's alright
I don't give a damn
I don't play your rules I make my own
Tonight
I'll do what I want
Cuz I can
Yeah

Uh
Break it down
It's tough times out here ya know what I'm saying mmhmm
Yeah I'm super thick
People say I'm much too chick
Come and kiss the ring
You just might learn a couple things
I'm trying to school you dog
Ruff ruff ruff ruff ruff ruff ruff
I'm your worst nightmare
Bring it we can take it there
What are you scared

So I'll cash my cheques and place my bets
And hope I'll always win
Even if I don't I'm ***ked because
I live a life of sin
But it's alright
I don't give a damn
I don't play your rules I make my own
Tonight
I'll do what I want
Cuz I can
Yeah

So I'll cash my cheques and place my bets
And hope I'll always win
Even if I don't I'm ***ked because
I live a life of sin
But it's alright
I don't give a damn
I don't play your rules I make my own
Tonight
I'll do what I want
Cuz I can
Yeah

There's more but that's for later.

American Independence Day!!!!!

Counting today we leave for SC in 3 days. (Last day to be alive is on the sixth! I'm kidding)

Okay, today is July 4th! Happy Independence day...yeah whoo! We're really bouncing off the walls, well some idiots are, I can imagine. Because of this goody-two-shoes holiday (yeah you don't want to know what I think about Thankgiving), I have to see a whole bunch of July comic strips. Let me tell right now that there might be two Ghost Person specials: without secretaries and the other without Allan! OMG, without Allan. That's right, you need to get to know the other eleven GP officers of the Lady of Uncertainty, not to mention the poor officers of the Lady of Gates. so I will copy this into my DeviantArt journal so people will not miss it. i hope to the person upstairs, whatever they call themselves, that R.S. isn't there...or worse his brother J.S.

Random 2

Random 1

Getting Lost Downtown while having Pizza

So I have gone to the training program for work. It was strange for today, we were put into groups. Our group is the most equal when it comes to gender: three girls, three guys. Everyone was talking and talking. We have these sign-in sheets and it took 30 to 45 minutes to sign in. Plus I'm taking BART to get there. Let me explain, I know how to take buses. Buses are easy, you know where you're going, all you have to do is look for landmarks. Subway is a big dark tunnel where you have to first guess what the person is saying on the speaker and then try to see a sign, horizontally at what 70 mph? So excuse me if I get lost. Then once I finally find the stop, then I find the stupid building. then afterwards, I have to do the reverse, than what I did, and I ended up today, a stop past Glen Park Station but yesterday I got home perfectly, so maybe being let out early was a good thing mentally. I don't know.

By the way, if one wants to go to Montgromery, it's after Powell and Glen Park is after 24th and Mission. Just in case, there is someone as Subway retarded as me out there...but hey at least I knew which direction to go in this time instead of asking two people. And I wouldn't have to ask anyone today if I could understand the guy on the fricking speaker, god that was annoying.

I am leaving for SC in 15 days. Which means, on the seventh, I'm going to be on a plane. So how am I going to magically going to get my paycheck on the eighth? I know ( I just said it): Magick! Yep, the best way to get anything. So I'm gonna have to work something out, perchance they'll mail it? I doubt it, but hey I can try, it never hurts to do so, does it? Well, it depends on the thing, like if you want to put rockets to the back of your car and you didn't do the measurements then it would hurt to try, but this isn't as brutal. I had pizza downtown. It was about fourish.

Yesterday and 17 days: fear and joy

Yesterday, I went to the movies with L. I saw Toy Story 3 and the Karate Kid, it was fun seeing the Karate Kid but I still could've seen it on the small screen without problem. But I'm weird that way. It was fun, especially with all the side track comments L and I made. But I know this fun will be short lived since I will have to start the count down until Myrtle Beach, SC: A most ominous feeling about this strange place which unfortunately, the news continue to proclaim the worst things about along with comedians bashing it (the state) for being quite stupid. I'm sure this is just the extremists and the government and there are very nice people there who are quite open to tie-dye...although I somehow imagine many people, like in Arizona, looking at us strangely, but it had to be because of the tie-dye and not the color of my skin or my mom's skin (which is darker than mine) or the fact that a white man married a black woman, it is still AMERICA for crying out loud, right? I mean right?

Days Until I die in S.C. (I'm not actually going to die....but then ya never know) : Counting today and counting the day we leave as zero, I'll say 17.

Days in Sebastopol

Yesterday was odd, I went to the CYO camp for the All-Church retreat of my church and it was fun but yesterday we had to say our goodbyes until next year. I had finished my French poster and just needed pictures for it. The car was packed and we drove to Wildflour Bakery where we got a bread called Green Goat (it was delicious), when we stepped out, the was a ring around the sun; it was a rainbow. If only I could taken a picture of it, but then I think the magic of it would fade away. Then afterwards we went to Sebastopol for ice cream in a place called Screamin' Mimi's. I got praline pecan and butterscotch with melted caramel in waffle bowl. Then we had to search for egrets since my mother was doing a gourd with egrets on it. I swear being a daughter to an artist is sometimes frustrating because when everyone else is going home, we are looking for birds. We also saw what looked like to be golden eagles...I wondered when the end of greenness would end. There was so much green! I love green but there was so much of it!

To ponder: Why don't people see green as beautiful before they try to destroy it?